Just Another Sad Story.

She loved a guy more than life and at the time he loved her back,
But it's fate's favorite thing to topple life when everything seems on track.

He came to her one day and said, "It's my parents, love, they want me wed.
They don't want us together love. Forget the girl forever they said."

She teared up and sobbed and wept and wailed, all she could do was cry,
The guy she loved more than life, didn't even bother to try.

She turned to practicality and decided to weep no more,
She promised not to answer even if, love came knocking at her door.

There was another guy, a friend, who had been through such a past,
He knew these wounds just wouldn't heal, they were always meant to last.

He was there for her and she for him all through their toughest time,
They knew this friendship was rare indeed, losing it would be a crime.

He thought they understood each other and so he went and asked her out,
She didn't really like the thought and asked what it was all about.

He told her they were great together and asked for a chance to be more,
She freaked out at the sight of what she thought was love again knocking at her door.

She said no as best as she could and disappeared from his life,
The wounds of her past she was amazed to know could still cause her so much strife.

The guy was great but she couldn't bring herself to put ,yet again, her heart,
And be vulnerable to the pain that before almost tore her apart.

Years later she still regrets not doing what she could have done,
She could have chosen to forget her past and let the friend be the one.

Lose My Mind

Seeing colors in black & white, a darkroom that is so bright,
The grief of what is left behind, may just be making me lose my mind.

Even the sunlight feels so cold, pausing life has been put on hold,
The pieces of the puzzle I cannot find, may just be making me lose my mind.

Everything seems as clear as mud, as unimportant as is blood,
Seeing my whole life in rewind, may just be making me lose my mind.

It is the calm amidst the storm, breaking hearts is now the norm,
The feel of pleasure and pain combined, may just be making me lose my mind.

The peace fostered by the threat of war, where life and freedom are either or,
The axes that I have to grind, may just be making me lose my mind.

When even choice is left to chance, and destiny is in a conscious trance,
Look at how the stars have aligned, perfectly to make me lose my mind.

My mind wanders...

My Mind Wanders...

My mind wanders to horizons unknown,

Leaving no crevice unchecked, unturned no stone,

I search for the one I can call my own,

My safehouse, my hideout, my treasure, my home.

I wait, I wonder, I wish, I desire,

To find someone with the same passionate fire.

If I have to, I'll go through a fiery pyre,

Because true love isn't something you can get for hire.

There was something different in the air, when I saw her that night,

Even doing the right thing ever felt so right.

I promised myself that with all my might,

I was never going to let this girl out of sight.

So i flirted, I wooed her, I proposed, she said yes.

The moment was inexplicable, I must confess.

How I longed to see her in her wedding dress!

But I wasn't meant to be happy for long I guess.

She was gone, she was dead, I was broken, I was shattered,

Because now that she wasn't there nothing else really mattered.

I beat myself up till I was bruised and I was battered,

What else can a man do when all his dreams in the wind get scattered.

So I breathe, I exist, my existence is my bane.

It kills me a little everyday, it drives me insane.

But I continue to live, I'm numb to the pain.

Only waiting for my end so I can be with her again.

She Came To Me In A Dream Last Night.

She Came To Me In A Dream Last Night.

She came to me in a dream last night,

One I had after quite a while.

Have you had enough of staying away?

She asked me with a smile.

I was left speechless as usual,

Not knowing what to say.

How could I tell her that it killed me everyday?

The fact that I walked away.

She gave me a knowing look,

Like she could read my mind.

I was reminded of my stupidity,

Because that kind of love is hard to find.

She took me in her arms and said,

I miss you more than you know.

And I thought she gifted me her forgiveness,

Neatly tied up with a bow.

And then from my dream I awoke,

Reality brought me back on track.

Because after what I'd put her through,

There was no way I was going to have her back.

Fought with a friend

Fought with a friend.

If you ever ask me where I find calm and bliss,

I will not say my lover's arms, I will not say her kiss.

It's not in the lap of snowy mountains, nor a clandestine beach,

I will not find happiness in a place that's out of reach.

No hotel of the luxury kind, no holiday retreat,

The company of my friends, no place can hope to beat.

And the most troubling times, the nights that just won't end,

How can I get any sleep tonight, when I've fought with a friend.

To all of my friends who lifelong have stayed true,

Here's hoping I never have to spend a moment without you.

Everybody's Gotta Start Somewhere.

Everybody's Gotta Start Somewhere.

Maybe a verse or simply a line,

If not a grand temple then maybe just a shrine.

You gotta leave here if you want to get there,

Everybody's gotta start somewhere.

Every beginning is some beginning's end,

Today's idea maybe tommorow's trend.

It's from the ground that you build your rep,

Every journey starts with a single step.

The hesitation to lay yourself bare,

Shows nothing other than the fact you care.

To listen to the music you gotta load the discs,

Even Spiderman has gotta take some risks.

So put out that canvas for the world to see,

Go be all you were meant to be.

Do what you love and can proudly say it's mine,

To reach the finish you gotta leave the starting line.

It's scary and terrifying to begin, I confess,

But beyond the veil of fear lies the sweet taste of success.

Says along the wisdom of great men,

If you want to finish something, then first you have to begin.